Mak nak complain!

i didnt wanna think too much abt the whole thing cos its really trivial, im sure he is not even affected by any of this shit but i dont know why i feel so emotionally attached i actually cried. ya ya i know this sounds really gay but i guess i was really disappointed luh. even after the assurance he gave me, i dont know why i wasnt convinced like ive so many ques i wanna ask but oh well, i guess good things come when you wait?

however, im still like disturbed and upset abt it, but i dont see the point of rubbing it in and start whining about it. well, usually if i get annoyed/angry at anyone i’d complain to cheen geet rabz but i guess when im really really really disappointed or upset abt smth, i’d rather not talk about it…. im really weird but it feels nice to get this kinda feeling once in a while(even if it kicks so hard, breaks your bones, cuts so deep, hits your soul, tears your skin, makes your blood flow- HUH) and by not telling ppl abt it in great detail, you’d somehow let the feeling stay at least for a while. cos when you start confiding in others, they’ll give you all sorts of advice, (eventhough its helpful lah kan) but most of the time i’d rather not know what others have to say cos then i’ll get to suffer more hahahahah it feels great. :D 

but anyway, met geetz and cheen aft sch just now and they gave me smth really cute and i love them im sorry i didnt really tell you guys about how i feel about the whole thing cos im really quite upset luh but i’d need some time to kinda think abt it and just let the feeling set in…. imma sucker for guys rmb so yeah okay love you, and i really hope i’ll get to meet RB soonest.

hari ni hari selasa. hmm besok hari apa? hari rabuuuu….. besok dia? hari khamissssss abeh lepas tu???? hari jumaatttttt eh takkkkkk harii rayaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. HUH.

well i’ve been a loser for abandoning every single blog i have, from blogspot to livejournal and now tumblr. i don’t know why i have trouble maintaining my blogs i guess i prefer registering everything in my mind and let it stay there. haha too lazy to like pen it down… but today, i just feel like writing about stuff………

okay well i’ve never felt insecure and paranoid in my entire life, not until this year. a levels is really taking up practically my supposedly fun teenage life. i don’t necessarily do well in sch but i don’t have a life either, sucks much? yeah i know right. but well, its definitely undeniable tt my 2 years in sr has been really gr8, with all the kunjis i’ve met along the way. all the stupid and bizarre things i’ve done, which i never, in my entire life thought tt i would do such things but yeah, it was worth the try. but at some point of time, i’ll have to sit down in gua hira and meditate and start having a purpose in life and stop goofing around. haha but for now, nah not yet. ;)

i don’t know why my body refuses to coop whenever i my mind tells me to get my arse off from bed and start studying. the fact tt a levels is in 2 mths’ time, and my results are atrocious, what is the probability tt i’ll make it to the faculty, wait, to a uni even. i hate to be pessimistic but sometimes i rather fall back to reality and not lie to myself. but well, i really believe tt i’ve the potential and insyaallah will mugg okay not mugg study very hard until i get what i want. (:

PS I CONTRADICT MYSELF A LOT

mcm cute eh

Nabins with soccer chicas was fucking awesome eventhough there were only 7 of us. Well, ordered lotsa food and we definitely talked about a lot of things, hmm not really gossiping if you ask. ;) But anyways, mr fam<3 joined us later at 9+ and i was so excited about this cute guy working at nabins so i told fam about it and he insisted i flirt with that cutey. Haha he even gave me lessons, more like a crash course on how to flirt with guys and that includes “you must not care about making a fool outta yourself”- like excuse me i’m always making a fool outta myself but that doesnt mean im flirting does it? In fact people know that i’m idiotic like that. Haha but oh wells i’m never gonna flirt, never never never i’m a good kid and i shall stop listening to fam’s flirting lessons.It might be useful in the future huh hahaha

But whatever, i had an awesome night, and i definitely am gonna go for another round with angeline, chelsea, syai and atiq fuhsoooo baik kapa

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i’ve decided to make a list to differentiate all the different kinds of people in my life; just so that i can appreciate them special individuals differently :)

and then i made a “bad list” too. currently, nadia and nadirah are in it because they made life difficult for me during money collection. i kindly told them to give me the exact amount of 1.80$ but they each gave me a 2$ note. after much contemplating, i’ve decided i should put them in my “bad list” until they redeem themselves… no worries, i’m quite reasonable…

 HAHAHAHA. Cheen, apa yang quite reasonable sia? Wah like that ah, whats your problem man. You disappoint me, man. Hahah nonsense tsk

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I’m tearing… uhhhhhh hahaha wth. Hi after ages of locking myself up in my crib trying my hardest to finish allllll the homework. say what? kuddos to mua :) I’m (kinda) proud to say that within sucha short span of time, say 3 days or less, i managed to complete quite a lot. okay okay i admit.. imma bitch what have i been doing the past 2 months(or less) haha.. started scrambling and panicking mcm nak rak on thurs=/ didn’t touch the computer at all, i’m cool shit. whatever for when i have the awesome television set to accompany me ;) i love you, i swear(how do you do the rock sign??!!) okay found (\) sign yay.. so i guess it’s \m/? yeah that looks pretty familiar.

of course not all is done right! i’ll complete them all by next week, my promise ewah ewah. it was surprisingly not that dreadful because somehow.. i felt i was driven and determined to get them done. where did that come from i wonder?

i was doing sbq yesterday @ ungodly hours hehe when this movie, ‘madhouse’ was showing on channel 5. so bloody gory siaaaa=/ but then it got really interesting and the sbq sources started getting incomprehensible and not fun so my eyes slowly got glued to the screen.. haii what can i say.. the movie was really creepy, not-so-predictable ending too. nice way to end my saturday or should i say start my sunday ;)

NOTE TO SHY: you look so different smiling with your teeth hahaha :) almost couldn’t recognise you sia.

NOTE TO NAD POWER PACK: your dada cute<3 must have gotten an erection ah! haha and can i please not talk to alibaba… so dreadful=/ shaven leg hairs. my legs are (kinda) beautiful alr, without those fugly short hairs haaaah

to the rest, invisible hugs from me! stay safe..from premarital sex ya^^

O-LEVEL KIDDOS GOOD LUCK TMR<3

Hahaha yea my dad rocks as usual. Anyways i actually watched only the first 10 sec of ‘madhouse’ siols. The starting where they wrote on the wall ”There is no place like home” or something like that. I freaked out so i watched cerita cina instead. Hahaha sucha pussy. Oh got to salute you for being so determined and hence, almost completed all your homework, well done kid! I have to agree, shy looks different when she smiles w her teeth wanted to tell her but was too lazy to. Lol see you in sch!

Okay let’s see. I’m almost done w gp and math. Econs is tough i don’t know how to do the questions but i did try some today, so okay lah kan. Hmmm historyy, okay lah shall do it tmr i must must finish at least the sbqs and essays tmr if not, i’ll die i know there’s not much time left before sch starts. :(

fml

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why the fuck did i reblog the same picture 3 times???? “SCREWED UP”~

these words gave me a good amount of inspiration..so i decided to give something a random thought..

we had a rocky relationship throughout 2009. and i’m sure it is not getting any better this year either. the best part is i don’t ever want to call it a truce with you because that would mean lying to myself and faking in front of you. i’m really doing you justice because hey, you’re my very first enemy :) haha, maybe you’re a great person/friend, i guess im sorry that throughout the months i’ve known you, all i see is a fugly(character wise) cunning bitch.. you top the list of the most ugliest people in my life=/ i usually can tolerate people i don’t necessary adore but with you, i don’t know why.. faking in front of you is extremely painful, i don’t have the courage to look you straight in the eyes(and this is not because i fear her).

seriously seriously, i hope i don’t have to share a reluctant conversation with you this year. bad enough we’re stuck in the same class..

now my beloved friends :) i hope this entry does not mean we will cut down on bitching about alibaba. she’s a trending topic on twitter! im all ears for the latest news about alibaba. 

aren’t (silent) bitch fights awesumz? ;) hugs everybody

 who on earth is alibaba? the only question i have cause i already know who that person is hahah

alibaba is ticktockticktock hahaha alibaba is sucha cool name can you do me a favour? haha can you reblog the entry tt i editted cos ada tense merepek last line! hehaheha

 hahaha! im so frigging nice (: you’ve been bitching about alibaba on twitter? but dude, when was the last time you guys met sia how come still got stuff to bitch about alibaba?

 hahahahahaha wah cheen dah tableh tahan perasaaan geram tu eh. i hope none of our classmates follow us on tumblr. eh w8, i think they know who alibaba is. and cheen, pls eh there will definitely be a time where you kena talk to her so gear up hun!